10.33 pm

The clock is ticking. My heart is beating. And now i'm thinking, what should i do for my future? What's best for me? Then i keep on thinking while my parents aren't giving me enough attention. Then if i failed, of course i really hope that it wouldn't happen, it's only if, if i failed, who is the person i have to blame on? Is it myself or them? Then if i succeeded, who is the person i have to thank to?

Kadang gue mikir, kenapa dulu gue milih memisahkan diri dari mereka ya? Yang gue bingung sekarang, kenapa malah gue mempertanyakan pertanyaan konyol kayak gini ya? Apa gara-gara intensitas pertemuan kita yang bisa dibilang jarang banget? IDK lah, pokonya saat ini gue lagi mengalami krisis percaya diri yang lagi parah-parahnya akibat bokap nyokap gue yang juga kayaknya masih kurang merhatiin gue, even in this last-year of my high school.

And for a zillion times, i just took a deep breath, again and again and again, and trying to make myself comfortable in everysituation. I'm trying to put my concentration to my future, what i really need and what i really want. Then i hope, i can do my best for myself and also for them, my parents.