menulis

menulis. kenapa ya selalu susah buat memulainya? gue sebenernya tiap hari udah punya hasrat pengen nulis mulu bawaannya, tapi pas udah kebuka ini blog, bingung deh mau nulis apa. hmmm gue lalu membayangkan apa jadinya gue bertahun-tahun kedepan kalo gue tetep ga membudayakan menulis. mungkin kedengerannya lebay, tapi kenyataannya jurusan kuliah gue sangat menuntut gue untuk hobi menulis dan BISA menulis. terutama essay dan makalah. naaaahh masalah utama gue adalah gue ga bisa menulis. ralat: belom bisa (sepertinya). lalu lalu? gimana dong nasib gue? untuk nulis blog yang notabene ga ada ilmiah-ilmiahnya sama sekali ini aja gue masih belom bagus, gimana kalo nulis essay ato makalah yang menuntut gue mesti punya opini sama argumentasi yang bagus? hmm, ada ga ya les khusus menulis?

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Hey folks, long time no share! hehehe. Well today i would like to say: Thank God it's Friday. It means 3 more days to National Final Examination which is so called UN. Maaaann it's been 3 years, almost 3 years, i'm going to Labschool. And finally the NFE is coming now, it's getting closer each day. And if there's someone asked me how far do i prepare for this damn NFE? I would like to say, i don't know. Sounds silly, huh? But that's me. I always don't know much about myself. I bet you say no way, there's no such people like that. But here i am, i DO NOT know how far my preparation for NFE while it's actually coming along in 3 days.

Poor me.

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Quality Time bersama teman-teman ITS 649 :)

Exam-ness

Work hard, play hard. That would be the best phrase which absolutely define me in this week of exam-ness. Study with a small-boys-group finally had an impact on me. I can play poker now, yippieee! *of course WITHOUT money! gini-gini juga gue masih memegang teguh agama gue yang melarang perjudian, apapun bentuknya hehe. Ohya satu lagi, gue bisa ngocok kartu a la pesulap-pesulap gitu hahaha, bangga bener gue rasanya.

But beside those happiness in this exam-ness, gue merasa sangat amat penyakitan krn terpaksa jadi perokok pasif selama beberapa hari ini. They were crazy while smoking! I don't know what it feels like... but they said it'll be easier to learn those f***ing-subjects while you're smoking. Then of course I said NO WAY! hahahaha. I'm thinking the opposite ways. I think that you'll be easier to learn those subjects when you concerned about them soooo much.

Aaannyway, kayaknya tiap orang punya gaya masing-masing buat belajar. Penelitian asal-asalan gue membuktikan kalo cowo-cowo biasanya jauh lebih bisa konsentrasi buat belajar kalo mereka sambil merokok (buat yg emang hobinya gitu). Tapi kalo cewe-cewe, hmmmhh.... paling bisa konsen kalo sambil makan ato nyemil-nyemil gitu deh kayaknya hahaha. No doubt that we're easier to get those fat than the boys hahahaha.

FINE (!)

F.I.N.E : Frustrated, Insecure, Neurotic, Exhausted... definetely me!

6.50 pm

"...The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts..."

Seems like I don't know what to do. It's getting complicated here, in my mind. Simply, I need my tears fall down right now, just to make sure everything's normal instead what's on my mind.

Then I suddenly realized, what I'm writing here, it's totally honest. What am I, a freak?! zzzzz

10.33 pm

The clock is ticking. My heart is beating. And now i'm thinking, what should i do for my future? What's best for me? Then i keep on thinking while my parents aren't giving me enough attention. Then if i failed, of course i really hope that it wouldn't happen, it's only if, if i failed, who is the person i have to blame on? Is it myself or them? Then if i succeeded, who is the person i have to thank to?

Kadang gue mikir, kenapa dulu gue milih memisahkan diri dari mereka ya? Yang gue bingung sekarang, kenapa malah gue mempertanyakan pertanyaan konyol kayak gini ya? Apa gara-gara intensitas pertemuan kita yang bisa dibilang jarang banget? IDK lah, pokonya saat ini gue lagi mengalami krisis percaya diri yang lagi parah-parahnya akibat bokap nyokap gue yang juga kayaknya masih kurang merhatiin gue, even in this last-year of my high school.

And for a zillion times, i just took a deep breath, again and again and again, and trying to make myself comfortable in everysituation. I'm trying to put my concentration to my future, what i really need and what i really want. Then i hope, i can do my best for myself and also for them, my parents.

Quality Times are...

Speaking about quality time -- well if you dont't know what is that, quality time is when you have this feeling, a very happy feeling, or a kind of 'lega' feeling, or more or less you just feel like that when you share the times with your closest friends, with your bff, with your family, yeah somekind like that. That moment, is what i called the quality time -- here are some of the quality times i ever had and i was really really happy while i'm doing it:
1. Discuss our future. It'll be very nice and really great when you and your company shared what do you want to, what do you expect to happen in the next 5 or 10 or even 15 years later.
2. Share lovelife stories. It's absolutely in the second top of my list because everytime my buddies and i are gathered together, the topic is always about lovelife. Actually it's our starter-pack before finally we discuss anything.
3. Share our opinions. You can say anykind of opinions, just like if you don't like the fashion of someone that was sitting near you (while you were drinking in a cafe), or it may be your opinion about our future president, anything. Just don't forget to feel free to do it.
4. Just have a cup of coffee or tea together, or just eat lunch together, or just try some cakes together, it's also consider to be a quality time when you're madly-deeply-happy doing it.

Those are some type of quality times that i ever had, and those are the best one. The heart of a quality time is a feel of happiness or joyfulness or just a free-feeling because you can say what you wanna say, share what you wanna share with your best buddies.

Whenever you sad, just go and do the quality time!

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Sepuluh fakta HOT tentang gue *hihihihi :
1. Gue biasanya ngeblog dari handphone.

2. Gue ga bisa internetan dirumah ; that's why i hate speedy!

3. Gue sangat sangat sangat suka bermalem-mingguan sama sahabat-sahabat tercinta :)

4. Gue suka vanilla latte.

5. Gue itu separoh dewasa separoh anak kecil *that's what people say, tau kenapa gue dibilang anak kecil? karena gue biasanya udah tidur jam setengah sembilan dimana biasanya temen-temen gue baru tidur tengah malem *sigh*

6. Gue anak IPS dan gue ga takut orang-orang memandang remeh gara-gara jurusan gue. I am totally proud being a SOCIAL-ist! *bukan penganut paham sosialis, gue nulis gitu karena kalo anak ipa disebutnya scientist hehehe

7. Gue gampang terpengaruh, emosi gue juga labil, jadi ga heran kalo gue bisa mendadak seneng tapi beberapa jam kemudian mendadak jadi bete.

8. Gue suka keabisan ide dan ga kreatif, makanya gue keluar dari Villa Merah huhuhu

9. Gue udah mencoba berbagai cara diet tapi ga berhasil hahaha sedihnyaaa....

10. Gue mendadak suka sama sejarah gara-gara kartul, and that's the best effect of writing kartul!

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